12 days sober is amazing and doesnt make you hopeless You have done the right thing by coming here and sharing how you feel, by doing so it quietens the addictive voice, it takes away its power. All these thoughts of drinking and hopelessness is your addiction speaking and not you ok. It is hard, but it is not impossible. Tell yourself yourself you wont drink for today, know that the urge to drink will pass and it does, each and everytime it comes up, it DOES pass. Welcome to the forum, keep posting and reading others experiences okay, it really helps x x