I'm suffering mass withdrawal from my ALO. I have spent the past 60 hours completely alone eating canned food that I don't bother to heat up. I just canceled on dinner with my family. I'm nonfunctional.
During this time, I came to realize that my addict got up before me, smoked meth on a daily basis to put on a happy face at work, probably had another bump at lunch, then came home just in time to toke up.
He would twitch violently in sleep, go off on random rages, start multiple unfinished home Improvement projects. He even had that bleeding out the butt syndrome that longtime meth users reportedly get.
I let him stay with me over three years.
Not feeling better about myself 34 days after letting him go.
What the hell was and is wrong with me?