This was YEARS of my life Mad. My drinking started around the time I worked two jobs, including the overnight, so my morning would be getting home from work, drinking a bunch while trying to decompress from the day, then sleeping until it was time to start working all over again. Good things happened to me during these years, but I know that I missed out on a whole lot and didn't make the most of relationships and opportunities I had during the time, and the whole thing left me really overweight and miserable. It's good that you recognize the pattern, because I didn't see how stuck I was at the time.