You are so right KissMyTiara, I don't feel healthy right now. My kids, for the past ten days or so have spent the night with their father. I have seen them regularly, picking them up from school or going early in the morning to take them to school, but aside from the hours we have spent after school they have been with their father. Yesterday I picked them up mid day and at lunchtime they left with their grandparents to go skiing. They were both very excited about that and I participated (soberly) in their departure. But I am worried about the effect my behavior has on them. On one hand it is good for me to protect them and have them stay far away from me, on the other, they need their mother. It is difficult and I assure you I suffer enormously over these decisions.
Edited to add: they will be in Switzerland with their grandparents for 10 days.