Originally Posted by
patricia68 
OCD, superstition, fear, are stronger than those exercises right now Dee. Fear is controlling me right now and I don't know how to stop it. I am thinking that everything will work out in the end. but on the other hand I think that this panic is too much to handle. Annd if I don't drink I won't be able to handle it. I look pale and drunk. And In 3 hours my husband is going to be home. He will find out that I've been drinking. I am scared. I have 1/4 of a bottle left and I am scared that I won't be able to handle it. I am scared Dee.
P68, I somewhat understand what you are experiencing. I can only offer my experience. Alcohol will create extreme FEAR in all of us. More often than not, once the alcohol is cut off, over a period of time the fear will subside. Take the first step, stop drinking alcohol, you'll get better quickly.