I'm in!
I like what someone wrote, was it Ken? MAKE SOBER THE EASY OPTION.
I can do that. That I can do.
Enough with the immense pressure I put on myself thinking my tremendous efforts will erase guilt.
Sobriety will be easier if I make it easy. Sobriety this weekend is rest and relaxation and eat things that taste good and hug a friend. I can do that. I will do that.
I miss my ex's child. Going on three weeks that I haven't seen him. Ex went no contact on me again when I went off on him for telling the kid I've been at 'work' for two weeks.
A lot happens in an almost four year old's life in three weeks. That's a lot of affection, guidance and fun to miss out on. Any tips for how to move on in a healthy manner? I can't stuff it down anymore thinking I will process the grief slowly. It is really painful.
Otherwise I'm in decent spirits and last night I came home and made myself scrambled eggs. Huge accomplishment, first thing cooked in my new apartment. That's where I am and that's ok, self care isn't second nature to me and I'll get there.
xoxo