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People will know what's up.
Really?
So if you quit drinking, people will know you have a problem, if you keep drinking they won't.
There is "needs to" and "has to"
Until there is a "wants to" , "needs to" and "has to" don't mean a thing.
The mere fact that forever scares you is an indication that forever might be the way. You don't have to commit to forever right now. You just have to commit for a day. And the next... Eventually those days add up and you'll come to realize that forever is not a bad thing.
Don't look at it as 'punishment' not being 'able' to drink. Look at it as 'empowerment' for you to live a better life by choosing not to drink.