Unfortunately I do not have the power to control intake once I start and I refuse to let that determine to outcome for what now is a great life, job, partner, and outlook.
I don't want to harp at you but this was your first post. AV is in control right now. You will be successful at moderating for some time but in the long run most of us end up where we started. I tried to moderate and I did it sometimes but then I had those times that it was horrible...
Again: I want to support you that's why I'm telling you this. I see your progress but don't let this progress fuel your AV. Have you read about AVRT? It has really helped me.