That AV will always be there. But every time you resist, the monster gets a tiny bit weaker. I like to think of it shrinking away, little by little, as time goes by. I'm hoping that someday, it's the size of a gnat. Just a tiny little irritant that can easily be swatted away.
You can do this, Melina. You did it for 8 months. You know how. I'm glad you resisted tonight. One day at a time.