Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Hi and welcome Chris
I made you your own thread
When I was a drinker, after a particularly rowdy night, I was the 'last man standing' in the pub and I was escorted/bundled outside and lights switched off.
I then fell down a few steps - nothing broken but I have a scar across my nose to this day.
For a long time I blamed the pub and its staff - 'duty of care'!!!! - but I forgot
I had a responsibility and duty of care too - to myself.
I'm glad you're coming to giving up for February and I'm glad you are considering going beyond that. Your gf moving out is serious stuff - it must be a huge red flag?
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Thanks Dee! I totally understand and take responsibility for my actions and do think it is my duty to not put myself and those around me in danger. I don't hold the pub a single bit responsible, I just wonder what people(bartenders that see drunk people everyday) think when they see me when I am that drunk and I think on the outside it looks much more "together" than I am on the inside (mentally) when I drink that much. I am functioning enough to go back the bar repeatedly round after round and order drink after drink when mentally I feel like my brain has turned off two rounds ago and I feel am an entirely different person.
I have a great life when not drinking and have been an athlete all my life and enjoyed my health in so many ways. Drinking and Alcohol has caused pretty much any problem I have ever experienced including losing a parent at a young age to alcohol and having an abusive alcoholic step parent growing up. I have unintentionally ruined several relationships because of my actions when drunk. Its just been so destructive to my psyche and the people around me.