You're not bumming us out at all...we've all had our lows, be it financial, relationships, medical issues, legal troubles. Just resolve to make the next right decision (even if it's just getting a good night's sleep), then tomorrow you make the next right decision at that time (perhaps getting something to eat, then perhaps spending more time here on SR, etc)... After a while these good decisions start to add up and you will feel better and start building a mental record of positivity, small step by small step. Oh and having a drink at any time is never the right decision. I made that mistake more than a few times, even after almost a year of sobriety! Hang in there; we're all here for you!
