To be honest camryn its mainly people who dont have a problem with alcohol and who dont see me alot when im drinking, sure they have seen me disgrace myself a few times but havnt seen the mess it causes my life.
Safeandsound- You pretty much hit the nail on the head i think, nobody really ever sees me drunk as im usually at home by myself.
My mum never thought i had a problem until i moved back in with her and she realised i was a mess.
I think on some level i want them to be right that im fine so i can go back to drinking, but it aint gonna happen this time, really have wasted so many years thinking i can control it