Hi Lolo and Ally!
I'm right there with you guys. This weekend and today have been extra rough on me. I feel like I'm back at Day One...which means I'm back to where I was three months ago
Do yourself a favor and don't assume that not hearing from him means he doesn't miss you or think of you at all. His brain is scrambled now and who knows what he is thinking or feeling, maybe nothing because he is numb from drugs, but that doesn't mean you are insignificant to him. They've got the drugs to comfort and distract them. He and his family may not be reaching out because they know they are doing you a favor allowing you to move on. It would be kind of cruel of him to reach out and talk to you to meet his own selfish needs when he is just going to have to say bye and leave again and hurt you more because he is in active addiction, now wouldn't it?
Hugs to you both. It's really hard, and sometimes we take two steps forward just to end up taking two steps back again. Keep fighting the good fight!