hey trish,
try not to be to hard on yourself for dong an alchy's thing, you caught it hun, even if it was after the fact, and you've said ammends werre made!
tht is what this is all about, GROWTH! and what you've posted here is definitely growth.
best thing i see here is that it's not old behavior's if i am still doing it, but by seeing it and taking steps to ammend it i can make it an old behavior.
thanks kid!