Hi @ericwilson
That makes PERFECT sense.
I heard on Recovery Elevator that "Alcohol is a disease that lies to you in your own voice." I love that quote.
I drank after almost 3 years sober because of it and it took me around 4 years to stop again.
I try to remember Step 1 every time the thought of drinking comes up.
If you are still going to use AA perhaps find another sponsor?
CJ.