Originally Posted by
Halcyonflux 
Hi FreeOwl,
This is my hope, that I don't have to be ashamed of my actions anymore, that I can approach life being completely in control of myself. That maybe i can find something outside of myself and feel thankful to be alive.
I am glad to hear that you have left all the negativity behind, that is such a massive achievement.
Just to be clear; it's not ALL behind.... sometimes, negativity rears its head. Sometimes, even my past bubbles back up for me. Sometimes, I have to re-do the work of letting go....
But now I have a way to do that. Now I can recognize when it's happening. Now I can work a step again, or bring it to my therapist, or share about it with a sponsor or a friend or my Lady.
Now - instead of it weighing me down, I know to act on it - and the action is NOT to drink or drug or try to blot it out or escape from it.