Hi and welcome Chris
I made you your own thread
When I was a drinker, after a particularly rowdy night, I was the 'last man standing' in the pub and I was escorted/bundled outside and lights switched off.
I then fell down a few steps - nothing broken but I have a scar across my nose to this day.
For a long time I blamed the pub and its staff - 'duty of care'!!!! - but I forgot
I had a responsibility and duty of care too - to myself.
I'm glad you're coming to giving up for February and I'm glad you are considering going beyond that. Your gf moving out is serious stuff - it must be a huge red flag?
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