Originally Posted by
Kurapika 
This part isn't the future I imagine for myself, but the 98% of the time when he's caring and attentive and perfect? That is
But you do realize you can't have one w/o the other, right? And as time passes, you will almost certainly see more of the bad side and less of the good one?
I just skimmed some of your old posts, and I see a post about having left an A boyfriend back in September of 2014 as well as posts titled "At the End of My Rope" and "Sick of Alcoholics." Yet here you are w/someone who expects you to buy them alcohol b/c he's broken his leg while drinking and "can't" go get it himself.
You also mention being involved in Alanon, which is good. However, there is a saying you've likely heard--"nothing changes if nothing changes." It might be time to dig down a little deeper and see if it might be helpful for you to take a few more steps forward, a little more "courage to change the things I can", if you know what I'm saying...