Oh my dear, I am so sorry for your pain. I wish I could have been a shoulder to cry on. Maybe you should go away somewhere for a bit. Is there anywhere you can stay or retreat to? That kind of betrayal from a spouse is really, really hard to take in the midst of this very shaky situation. Do you know why your husband acted against your agreement? The only thing I can think is FEAR. Fear of losing him somehow, guilt, regret...it all creeps in when we make and try to hold on to these painful decisions with our addicted child. I hope you get some rest and that you can find someone to talk with, in person. Any NarAnon meetings where you live? They have helped me in my darkest hours. You are in my thoughts and prayers tonight. I have been in your shoes and walked this journey.