Curmudgeon, Electrical Engineer, Guitar God Wannabe
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Where the mighty arms of Atlas hold the heavens from the Earth
Posts: 3,403
Winter...
You're right: she's not going to change. And it's normal to be heartbroken about that. When a marriage ends, it's always difficult, but when it ends due to addiction, it's especially difficult. And I think the only thing you can realistically do is take it a moment at a time.
When you went to your parents' house this week to figure out your future, I'm guessing that was a pretty overwhelming thing for you. The truth is we seldom know what's going to happen in the future. But it's a safe bet that if you stay with her, things will get worse, your health will continue to suffer, and the well-being of your children will be at risk. So don't look at your future as a whole right now. Just concentrate on what you need to do today to make sure you're safe and your children are safe. That's the only thing that matters: your health, and the health of your kids.
We're in your corner, OK?