Thank you for the reply. I appreciate the feedback. I worry about not seeing the kids full time to most. That is my greatest fear. Though over the last few years I have given them all of my time even at the cost to my job which I lost as well as my health which I lost due to stress over the constant addiction and late night running around by AW. I really don't think she will change that is my brain says but heart is having such a hard time accepting this fact. I had to run away to my parents house this week just to a clearer head on what I want to do with this and the rest of my life. Fortunately my kids are with Aw as well as a visiting non user couple and their kids in my house. I can't stress how close to death I came from dealing the stress from the addiction. It is really really really hard to detach and find a clear path.