I'm going. My friend (she is like a Angel to the likes of which I have never seen) she is making me. And I respect her with all my heart. So if that is what it takes to make me do it for me right now then so be it. And I've thought about that too. I may be doing it cause she is making me but I'm really doing it for myself because I have pride and respect and so even though she is "making" me go. It's what I want to do. So me wanting to do it for others is really me doing it for myself because of my love for others. Hope that made sense.