Originally Posted by
Madbird 
I had thought going back to drinking would make me more sociable because I was kind of lonely, but it backfired and made me isolate even more because I didn't like anyone seeing me drunk. I remember telling my sister how much I hated myself and thought that was why I kept drinking.
Funny thing is, now that I've stopped pouring booze into me, I don't hate myself at all. I've come to realize that I'm just not a sociable person, that it's okay to be a quiet introvert and I'm actually enjoying my own company a lot now.
And so grateful to be sober again!
Thanks Madbird - I think this is very helpful and was true (the premise) for me as well. We start to discover the real us! Not what we think we are like, but in reality what we are.
Totally agree - frankly, it's not all good on my part......but that recognition gives me an opportunity to change, perhaps. Or at the very least not act on those defects.