I had thought going back to drinking would make me more sociable because I was kind of lonely, but it backfired and made me isolate even more because I didn't like anyone seeing me drunk. I remember telling my sister how much I hated myself and thought that was why I kept drinking.
Funny thing is, now that I've stopped pouring booze into me, I don't hate myself at all. I've come to realize that I'm just not a sociable person, that it's okay to be a quiet introvert and I'm actually enjoying my own company a lot now.
And so grateful to be sober again!