I agree with everyone. I wasn't able to get a grip on sobriety until I told myself that I was choosing it instead of being forced. It wasn't until I wanted to be sober for myself and my family that it took. I have since noticed that can now find countless reasons to not drink. I have seen people at work hungover, bloodshot eyes, horse voice, red faced, all puffy faced from the sugar and carbs...no thank you. The talk of needing to throw up to feel better or need a drink to recover...no thank you. And just yesterday my brother in laws girlfriend was admitted to the hospital with acute liver failure. She was told she will be fine if she never drinks again...no thank you.
You don't need to go through this white knuckling. You just need to shift your way of thinking and the motivation behind your sobriety...IMO.