Originally Posted by
kittycat3 
Thanks guys. I knowingly planned my slip, had a rough day at work and afterwards went straight to the bar.....
Today I'm at home working (thank goodness a snow storm provided a good cover) and I feel like a loser.....because I make poor choices again and again. I know I'm an alcoholic, and I keep drinking. I am scared for my life, really. If I keep drinking, it will kill me.
I need to be accountable and need your support! So thanks for having me
I had over half a year sober in 2015 when I did the exact same thing.
Things were going good, even great, most of the time but I had a couple of bad days and decided that drinking was the answer. I planned that first drink for 24 hours before I took it, ignoring all the things I'd been doing to help myself over the previous six months. Within two or three days of that drink, I was back to drinking just as much or more than I ever was, and like I discussed in my long post here this morning, soon after that I'd been starting my drinking every day at this time in the afternoon, having two to five glasses of wine before going to work. It was scaring me and I'm ready for something better.