Originally Posted by
sammy03 
Thank you for your kind words. It's a massive emotional roller coaster. I can't do it anymore on my own. No he speaks to no one about it. We spend our lives going around in circles :-(
Time for you to hop out of the circle and seek some help and healing for yourself. Unfortunately when loving an addict we have to reach the point where we choose to care for the emotional damage it has caused us whether they choose to seek help at the same time or not. It's much easier said than done. I am just starting to get help for myself so I know. I can tell you I've never felt more at peace with my situation than now though. You can feel this peace too. I have an AH and we have a child together, so very similar situations. Seeking help alone will seem scary, but will only bring strength to you during this time you need it most.