Originally Posted by
TimeForMe 
At that point I called my lawyer and told him I wanted to move forward with the divorce. I am out of town for the week, so AH will be served with divorce papers this week.
So, I am getting settled in my new place and moving forward. As sad as I still get, I feel now like the white-knuckle panic feeling is gone (I didn't realize I felt that way until I didn't anymore). That's progress, right?
I think that's the relief that comes with getting OFF the fence and making a decision and moving forward. Up until that point, it's like you're weighing and measuring everything, pro and con, worrying about making the wrong choice. Once the choice is MADE, there is a huge sense of relief. You don't have to keep weighing/deciding (and that's far more exhausting than the work involved in moving forward once you've decided).
Sounds like you've made a great decision and now it can all be about YOU.