Hey Justin,
Try putting alcohol and how it affects your life into a visual perspective.
Get a piece of paper, draw a line down the middle and label one side "How Alcohol Effected Positively" and the other "How Alcohol Effected me Negatively" then proceed to fill in the blanks over a couple days as different items come to mine.
It will give you a visual on why you should or shouldn't drink. When I ran out of things to write in after about a week there were 2 items on the positive side and the negative side was filled. The two positive items: helped me get the courage to walk up to two different girls that I got dates from in college whose names I can't even remember.
The negative side...DUI, lost job, car repossession from lost job, lost touch with friends and family, lost respect of co-workers, missed important events that would have moved my life forward and all for what? To sit in a bar with strangers that I don't even talk to anymore or sit at home alone drinking and playing video games.
The people that you're trying to make drinking work for right now probably won't even be in your life for the most part 5-7 years down the road.
You sound a lot like me 12 years ago. Do yourself a favor and realize you have a problem. It only gets worse if you don't.