Originally Posted by
starsailor 
I gave in to my AV last night. I had those "deserve a drink" thoughts. They were so strong and I couldn't face going home without a drink, but equally know where it would lead me-self loathing, anxiety and depression. Why am I doing this to myself?
Sorry to hear you're not feeling great SS. I have learnt that for me, drinking is a symptom of something else and not the cause. Maybe you're finding it tough because you haven't addressed the cause x