Originally Posted by
Dropsie 
Loved your post -- I am also extremely self destructive, so completely relate.
Any good advice for the loving yourself bit??
Good for you on stopping drinking. I have too, but the rest is so hard. And dealing with all the fallout from my self destruction. But drunk it would be impossible, now its just difficult.
Congrats on 13 days, its a great decision.
Thanks for your reply Dropsie x
In an attept to answer your question...at 30 I finally felt 'safe' enough to uncover*painful experiences from my past, that from a young age had left me feeling unloveable and worthless, and which had set me up to mistreat myself for most of my life i.e engage in self destructive behaviours. I could only tackle these difficult experiences and the emotions they had produced (which I had internalised) in a supportive environment like therapy. Apologies if this is all a bit heavy and deep! But there is a reason someone engages in self destructive behaviour...so the only advice I can give is to consider therapy if you haven't already. Once I made peace with my past I was able to make peace with myself...and in turn learn to love myself x
p.s it's still a work in progress!*