I'm with you - I "deserve" a drink, I "deserve" junk food. I'm so self destructive. I can totally recognize it but I don't feel like my toolbox is completely well stocked with tools to break that pattern yet. But I'm trying!
It's interesting because the drive home is definitely a trigger time for me. If it's not alcohol, at the very least I should get a pizza or a burger, right? I need to build in nurturing routines for that ride home time.
I do deserve to feel ok, but I'm not going to get there via beer and pizza!!