HP - I listened to this meditation (Deepak Chopra) for the 1st time last night & like it a lot. In the beginning, this part caught my attention right away:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nh0BgFM0ogc
"There is only one secret to healing & it is: Enlightenment. Enlightenment means going beyond your ego-encapsulated identity and realizing that You are The Universe, manifesting through a human nervous system, and becoming self-aware."
It makes things like looking at those "seasons" you speak of a little more about the story & the players on stage during those scenes & how it all evolves. Ultimately it's ALL about us as individuals. ((((((Hugs))))))) Sorry you are struggling lately!