Jennie, you are not a looney. You've been through major surgery. And, I get what you mean. This is something you considered and thought about for years and now it's finally done and it's an emotional time. I'm really sorry that Brian is letting you down again and again. But, as Leigh said, you need to feel safe and secure in your own home. I am so frustrated for you, that you feel unsafe. That's a horrible situation to be in.