It's great to have you join us, ecm.
This is a wonderful place for encouragement.
I considered myself to be the same type of drinker, once. I did nothing to help myself back when I first realized I didn't drink normally. In the end, I was drinking every day - completely dependent on it. It was much more difficult to stop as an older person, with a 30 yr. drinking career behind me. I'm glad you're taking a look at what your drinking is doing to your life.