I didn't grow up much sinceI began using. When I got sober at 23 because of my drinking and drugging there were certain things that I never really experienced...like emotions. Everything was new to me. Over the last few years as I have begun to experience new things in life I am growing. I look back and know that I'm not the same person I was a week ago.
Most importantly you should develope a recovery plan. I go to meetings, work the steps, read recovery literature, and come around here. If you put down the booze and work a program you will grow. Goodluck on the journey.