Man what a morning. Woke up around 4am with this bitterness and anxiety I can't explain. Well I can but just don't have the time. I got up and started reflecting on everything in this poisonous hindsight that drove me to so much rage and shame that I just curled up in a ball. Eventually I got up and started to get ready for work. On the way in I just started talking to myself....sorta in a monologue way pretending someone was next to me listening. No AV or cravings.....at the moment. However knowing my track record it's around the corner. Anyways just checking in. Hope all are doing well.