Hello, Richey.
Go for a walk, my dear. Walk. Don't drink. Look at the ground, and see it. See it sober. That's just the beginning. You see a tiny plant peeking out of the pavement? Praise it! Look how it's surviving! The pigeons that are undoubtably flying overhead? Look at them. They're beautiful, and they have naught. But they keep trying, working, living. I'm not trying to compare you to plants and animals, necessarily, but see some other thing. See the life around you. If you're so bored, find out what these things are... learn their names and what they have to offer. You are so bored, right? There is so much to learn. I lived for several years in SE Asia, and I had not much in the way of clothing - what I had, I scrubbed by hand, with soap and water. It does not matter what you wear, it matters what you are.
Blah. I am saying nothing that you don't already know. I just hope you're ok.
--anne