It's difficult (by the way i'm in bed but can't sleep due to the heart pounding) cos I'm not even sure if I can quit. I love drinking, I love getting hammered, but I know that no one can advance and progress with life if they are constantly ****** up. So, as I lay here (with my girlfriend snoring in my ear haha) I'm thinking maybe this needs to be the end of the road. Drinking gets me nowhere, I need to find a way to push through and go tee-total. I need to give it up permanently.