Hello! So I have joined AA and have started my steps - I have 31 days sober today.
One thing I have noticed is I am not numb to the world anymore and I actually have to face all of my feelings. I've been going to some sober parties and events recently, and I have always known that I am very insecure, but I've always had alcohol to hide that and make me "confident" for the night. Now, I am so anxious about everything about myself - my appearance, my shyness. I can be so withdrawn: arms crossed, very quiet. Yesterday, I went to a party and all I could think of was that I wish I had a drink because I just felt like such a weirdo. I felt like I looked ugly, I didn't know anyone there and I had a hard time making conversation. Anyone have any advice? I'm hoping this program will teach me self-love because I am sincerely lacking in that department.