One of the 10th step promises from the big book Alcoholics Anonymous is:
We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
I spent my life in anxiety and depression, surrounded by family chaos. Then I created my own chaos unintentionally as an adult because that's all I knew.
Peace? Serenity? I didn't think it was possible unless I was asleep or dead. After reading the 10th step promises, I had that mustard seed of belief that it was possible.
I'm happy to say that I have finally experienced moments of living in peace and serenity for the first time in my life, because of working my recovery program.