Originally Posted by
Hawkeye13 
enfin, address the unhappiness, don't drink it away
That's what I dont know how to do. I don't know who's right who is wrong. I don't know how I feel... I just don't know.
Everything else in my life I am (or appear to be) strong, capable, successful (enough anyway) .. but at home I seem to be so unsatisfactory... I can't seem to work it out. I try and ditch the obsessive thoughts and give 10000% to home, only to screw up and do something annoying or wrong quite soon, then feel deflated and crap again.. .. no fake happiness in booze available either.... so back to the thoughts. I need rewiring in the brain!
Thanks for all your inputs. ... I appreciate having people to talk to and sound out my inner feelings!