I'm no expert, but alcoholism is progressive and for each of us there's a "point of no return." At a certain point in the progression of the disease, it becomes physiologically impossible to return to being a "normal" or "social" drinker.
I'm not qualified to diagnose the phase of your alcoholism, but the things you're describing (drinking in the morning to stop the shakes, drinking throughout the day, feeling like you're going to die) make it sound pretty advanced. I was at your level and wasted DECADES trying to return to normal drinking. With each attempt at moderation, my addiction worsened. I've never heard of anyone being at that level and returning to normal drinking.
If you feel like your life is at risk from drinking, whyprotect drinking? Protect yourself instead! Quit drinking and let drinking be the casualty rather than your health/life!