Hugs, Stung! When I left my XAH, my true 'crazy' nature became so much more evident. That's why OUR recovery is so very important to us just as much as our qualifiers must find their own recoveries, as well.
It really was a huge reminder to me that I'm just as flawed as the addict in my life and that I need to really look within to fix me. Forget about fixing him. I was even more broken than he was. Yet, as sobering as that fact was, I knew I wasn't alone. I had program and friends and people here at SR.
Wishing you well and lots of hugs and support to you tonight, too.