Today is
much better!! I can breathe again and relax.
I do feel badly that it had to end so nastily. I told ex AB numerous times it was through and he didn't hear it and manipulated me back in again and again and I failed and..... did.
His family now "hates" me and calls me a "B" which also makes me mad. I put alot of work into ex AB to get some help (enabling, I know) and back then, to them, I was an "Angel".
WHen I told him I wanted out and he'd tell them how "mean" I was to him, then they hated me.
I have no control over that or their feelings. I know what I meant to try and do and it went insane-ER when I wanted out.
So, be it. The main thing is that I'm now out. There's no way for him to contact me (unless he mails me something and then I'll just "return to sender") and I won't contact him.
If I EVER get weak and start to miss the good times we had, I WILL post on here, I promise!
My heart goes out to all of you that have helped me so much. I thank God for you and I pray that you're all having a really great day today.
(((Hugs))))