Just a quick reply, as I'm sure you have already gotten plenty of feedback. I can tell you that I ABSOLUTELY felt the same way at my first meeting, actually probably my first 10 meetings. In fact, I think the entire experience helped give me a false sense of reassurance that I was just fine. So I used that as a reason to keep drinking..
You don't have to do AA. But please, please don't confuse that with the notion that you can simply continue drinking. It's a progressive disease, you will get to that point eventually should you continue.