Great post, Kuebiko! This thread is one of my favourites here, and it represents the best discussion of AVRT anywhere in my estimation.
I am linking to the original post so that others can follow it too.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...iscussion.html
Another reason I am linking is to provide authorship - a past member who called himself Terminally Unique, who was the primary proponent of AVRT here at SR for years. Thank you TU. I owe you.
It is truly a gift, Kuebiko, the ability to see things as they are, and move towards an acceptance and understanding. This is one task where an unshakable confidence in self is essential. Fortunately, once you have made your big plan, everything that might affect this confidence is outside of you, leaving you unaffected and resolute in your choice. Make that Big Plan, keep that confidence in self pegged at the limit, and you will be just fine. Well done!