Thanks for the post - you're off to a good start.
I hoped / wished for a long time - I prayed to a Santa Claus god to relieve my pain. Nothing gave me more than a couple weeks until moved my feet along with my lips and heart.
Once I sought the help that kept me away from making the poor (or pour ) choice to drink things change quickly and dramatically.
Glad you're here with us - welcome
Keep coming back