D122y, I hear what you're saying. I enjoyed a lot of my drunk time too. I've thought about this more than I should but overall I really only regret the year before my first quit and the year and a half after my relapse and before this quit. 2.5 years out of 12-ish. The other part, ups and downs, don't love all of it, but I don't regret it. I built my entire world as a drinker; I've had a good life so far both in spite of and sometimes because of parties. I like the phrase in the AA promises, "We will not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it."