Hi all! Checking in on day 39...and on my 39th birthday! Weird! I think that is a double celebration. Am starting to feel a bit better this week; reading "Care of the Soul" which has been helpful with my existential struggled to find meaning. Without work or booze to hide my underlying fear that life is ultimately meaningless, I recognize that I need to address it. Also read Blackout-Remembering the things I Drank to Forget by Sarah Hepola which was an excellent, timely read. Made me reflect on the the things in my story which have constantly whispered in my ear that I am not good enough - somehow flawed. Here's hoping that this year will be a game changer - accepting all of me and believing that I am who I am supposed to be and am ok as is.